There was a long stretch when I thought we wouldn't make it, wouldn't be able to go. Joe's lymphoma really screwed things up for us in the fall; the economy didn't help, either. There was so much uncertainty about where we'd be physically and financially that I had tearfully given up on it completely. And at that precise moment of surrender, bam, everything lined up to make it possible. After the year we had, all that we went through in 2009, my deep and joyful reaction to going, and going together, is Fuck Yeah, we so need this!
Cancer really changed things. Before, I wouldn't have given it a second thought that of course I was leaving on retreat to an exotic location with my teacher Laura Christensen. That's what happened in July of 08 when I heard about her retreat to Careyes, Mexico in April 09. I sent in my deposit, got my plane ticket, and then told Joe. It's nothing scandalous - it's just that since we have our own stuff that we're into, me yoga, him bikes, it's just how we roll.
How we rolled, I mean. Since the cancer, I can't imagine being away from Joe for any length of time without asking permission first. And permission is something I never asked for before. I just Did. It's different, but it feels good, and I'm so happy that we'll be there together this time around.
It's going to be an amazing adventure. I'm so glad to have been asked to assist with planning and logistics, two things which I adore about traveling, but mostly so excited to be there, to see it, taste it, smell it, all in the company of my beloved and my teacher and my friends.
Here's to not having to choose between. Here's to Bali in 5 weeks.
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