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Yes, it's true. Today is my first day of no-heachache after four days of headache. It wasn't a life-destroying migraine, but a persistent, nagging, joy-suck of a pain that made everything less-pleasant for four days. Starting Friday morning, all through the weekend, into Monday. Nothing I swallowed did any good.. Nothing. Finally, last night I decided to throw down the gauntlet once and for all -- swallow the Ambien and sleep for 8 hours straight, free of churning thoughts.
And sleep I did. Solid. Hard. Straight.
I woke up this morning and lingered a bit in bed, moving gingerly, testing the edges of where the headache had been. Was it truly gone? Or was it just hidden in the fluffy comfort of this much-needed sleep-fuzz? Gingerly probing, sending out a mental tentacle. You there?
Well and truly gone.
Which makes me jump around like Snoopy, prance like Mr Burns. Everything is beautiful. I can see clearly. Every moment is liberated, I'm drunk on the freedom of no longer operating in that too-familiar dull painful fog.
Sleep: it's the linchpin, the essential without which the wheels well and truly slip off.
Solid sleep is the linchpin of her personal happiness program.
I know Seth Godin wrote a book called Linchpin, all about making yourself indispensable at work, bla bla bla. The linchpin that I'm talking about is internal -- not about how you can be successful while pursuing your passion and being yourself, bla bla bla. [Note: I have nothing against either of these ideas, both of which I exaggerated for reasons of flow.] It's like I've had my own little a-ha moment (or ha ha moment, as in someday you'll laugh about this. Thanks, Modern Family).
Ha ha, a-ha: I suddenly realize that I don't need a long To Do list. Nope, I only have to do one thing right; the rest will take care of itself.
All I have to do is sleep.
Easy and yet the hardest thing for me. But if I can just nail it, then everything is golden. The sun is always shining and I'm right there with little sable-monkey Mr Burns, drinking in the delight of each moment with my whole self, wagging.